It's my life, its NOW or NEVER....

Well the last couple of days have been somewhat emotionally challenging to say the least.

Yesterday i broke up with Ross :-( because i couldnt stand what it was doing to Mel. She had become depressed and jealous and i didnt know what to do, when i rang her and told her i could sense her happiness, which hurt my feelings because i was happy and i ended it for her. I felt really weird/sad/angry dumping him because i DIDNT want to But we talked and talked and talked and then she said something incredibly decent. She said "put yourself first for once" - and d'ya know what? i bloody well did. I rang Ross and we sorted stuff out and got back together. :-) YAY!

Today Mel werent in School (I knew she wouldnt be in, freaky huh?) i had an OK day, it wasnt bad but it wasnt spectactular.
After school Ross, Tom and I went to Dockside for dinner. It was so funny, Tom (yes, Tom!) was so funny, lol. Then after that Ross came to my house, i showed him around then we went to my room and after debating with Amber and her forcing me to talk to her because of guilt, she went downstairs and me and Ross had a very nice time indeed. lol, it was quite dangerous because Amber was only downstairs but i liked it and i think i can saftely say Ross enjoyed him self.... ;-)

School tomorrow.... lol, I'm happy, i dont care.